When I Fall In Love

For the past while I have been single, by choice. There is no desperation on my part to be with anyone. I have been trying to fine-tune my girl skills to somehow, somewhere charm someone into becoming hopelessly in like with me. Oh but not just anyone....

Before last week I believed that love was a myth, a fairytale. That it was no more real than Santa Clause and the Easter Bunny. I believed that it was somehow believed, hoped for and enjoyed by the young, innocent and faint in heart until one day when they become adults and learn the sad truth that love is dead. Just like when you find out that dad is Santa Clause. You are overcome with a sense of betrayal and hurt. I thought I had hit that sad perceived truth.

Some of you may be confused.... I of course fell in love before, but it has faded away, leaving me to wonder if I was temporarily insane or really in love. Is there a difference?

So last week I was writing my book (yes I am writing a fiction). And I started thinking about this. The reason is that there are two characters in my book that are starting to become very close. I was not going to make them fall in love, for how could I if I myself did not believe in love? I called it a sort of fling. Then a song popped in my head.. "When I Fall in Love' by Celine Dion

when I was a younger my friend Chappy and I used to sing this song. I sang the girl's part and he sang the guys part. We sang it everywhere we went, walking to dinner, to school, to the barracks, downtown. We loved it. ( I know cheesy right?.... I was young give me a break.)

So I was listening to this song and I realized that a part of me has been dead for the past four year. I think it is about time to start believing in love, instead of being a bitter jaded person. This is not the person I want to become. Just like the scrooge on a Christmas carol who doesn't' believe in Christmas. I refuse to become as such

I am not saying I am going to go looking for 'the one' (I not in a hurry) but I am going to do myself a favor and stop being so cold and jaded, in this way I make myself more open to that special someone someday.


So here it is the lyrics to one of my favorite songs. I believe in every single word and its compilation is brilliant!

When I fall in love
It will be forever
Or I'll never fall in love

In a restless world
Like this is
Love is ended before it's begun
And too many
Moonlight kisses
Seem to cool in the warmth of the sun

When I give my heart
I give it completely
Or I'll never give my heart

And the moment I can feel that you feel that way too
Is when I fall in love with you


(I guess I can't hide it anymore... I am a hopeless romantic at heart)