Been a while.

"It has been a while," Sarah Conner yelled over the booming speakers to the woman who stole her heart four years prior.

"Yes," she said and turned to the bar tender, "I will have an apple martini."

"Make that two," Sarah Conner put two fingers up and took a seat next to Dr. Keira Grey, "I have always wanted to say that....you know 'make that two.'"

"I am sure you have had your practice you pequeño saltamontes," Keira said in her heavy accent.

"I am not even sure what that means," Sarah suspected it was not good and handed the bartender a twenty dollar bill, "keep the change sir."

"Thank you," he said and handed the women their drinks.

"It means I still like you anyway," Dr. Gray scooted her bar stool closer to Sarah Conner.

"Really?!" Sarah Conner was shocked and almost chocked on her drink. "Well let's go out sometime, I mean somewhere not so......."

"Crowded?" Keira smiled at Sarah and remembered the kiss they shared many years ago.

"Yeah, I want you to myself," Sarah Conner said with a nervous smile and finished her martini in one long sip, "I promise I won't bring anyone with me."

"You better not," she said and drank her martini, "Wanna dance?"

"Sure," Sarah Conner put the glass down and held onto Keira's hand, she wondered how long this time would last before she vanished again and more importantly will she ever be 'hers.'

Keira held Sarah close as Beyonce sang Sweet Dreams.

"You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare.... either way I don't want to wake up from you..."

Sarah Conner couldn't help but feel that she was in limbo, so close to heaven, near to the woman she had always longed for and yet so far away at the same time.

It was only a matter of time and Keira would be gone... This was the nature of their relationship. The untouchable Dr. Gray.

Sarah wondered why she held on to her so tightly knowing that she would most likely dissipate into a memory, a real good memory.

The music stopped and everyone gathered around the stage at the corner of the bar. It was obvious that there was going to be a band.

"Come on," Sarah said and put her arm around Keira's waste, "let's see what it is."

"Okay, just a little while, then I want to leave and get ice cream out of the macheen," Keira said and reluctantly stepped toward the stage with 'her Sarah.' she thought.

Keira stepped back a little surprised that she just thought of Sarah Conner as 'her Sarah.'

"The macheen!" Sarah started laughing, "I love that accent of yours! So adorable!"

"It's a macheen!" Keira tried to say it correctly and only made Sarah laugh harder.

"Say it again," Sarah Conner smiled and laughed.

"No!" Keira pushed Sarah away and then pulled her back closer, "I try to speak without the accent but can't!"

"It is okay," Sarah smiled and found them folding chairs leaning on the wall. "Let's sit down."

Keira unfolded one of the chairs and sat down as some piano music started playing, a few notes at first, then the notes turned into the introduction of a song she was all too familiar with.

I Can't Make You Love Me...

A man grabbed the microphone and Sarah could hear some people whisper...'is that Adam Lambert?'

"This is a love song I enjoy," he sat up in a high bar stool with the microphone in hand as the piano player played the melody, "there is this unrequited love, that you are searching for and looking for, and...it eludes you and it escapes,"

Dr. Grey looked at Sarah, her thoughts racing so fast she couldn't even put them together.

"it hurts.." Adam Lambert paused and looked down at his feet bracing the bar stool. "especially if you are projecting it, you are putting out that you want that, you are like....." Adam looked at the audience and sighed.

Sarah's heart skipped a beat and she felt a knot in her throat as Keira squeezed her hand.

"This next song has to do with that feeling," Adam took a sip of bottled water, "feeling like you found somebody and... who is with you in your bed when you wake up, go to sleep...comes hangs out with you...to movies.. things like that. But the feelings aren't there. We have all had that. I mean Hello! We have had that it is a non intimate companionship and it is just a limbo and it hurts."

Adam Lambert started singing the lyrics to I Can't Make You Love Me.

Sarah looked over at Dr. Grey and saw tears well up in her eyes. So much to say, but too afraid to say it, Sarah rubbed Gray's arm with her fingertips. Keira pulled her in closer into an embrace, cheek to cheek.

"What is it about this song that makes you cry," Sarah whispered in Gray's ear as she caressed her back with her free hands.

"Because it is the first and only song I totally learn in English..." Keira whispered back.." and its true."

"Good reason, I suppose..." Sarah didn't know what to say, she wanted to hold Keira forever and never let go but was so afraid, feeling in limbo.

"Besides I have been in that situation so many times," Keira's voice was full of pain, "being one or the other, the unloved or one that cannot love...story of my life.." Keira exhaled slowly into Sarah's ear.

"I know how that feels," Sarah felt a deep understanding of the words of the song on an entirely new level, she had listened to it so many times but it did not register until now, "Is that why you are so untouchable?"

"Maybe....Sometimes I wonder if all people are made for love.." She whispered as Adam sang the song louder, "maybe not and I am one of those...Successful in everything but love..."

They both held each other in silence rocking slightly to the music listening to the words...

"You can't make your heart feel something it won't. Here in the dark....."

"I think at this moment I'm at ease with it. Other times I want to fall crazy in love .... oh well...."

"I want to thank all of you," Adam stood up, everyone clapped. He walked off the stage, his guest appearance to the local gay bar short but remembered.

"Thank you Adam, " the fabulous shimmered from head to toe Queen DJ stepped on stage looking around the audience, "I don't see one dry eye out there, how about grab your partner or friend, it is couples dance! Here is one for you all."

The DJ put on Collide by Howie Day. "Now all of you take that special someone, or one night stand..." a few gay man yelled out HAY!!! "onto the dance floor, here is your chance ladies and dikes." the drag queen DJ laughed.

Sarah stood up and looked down at the most beautiful woman she had ever seen in her whole life, " You heard the man...."

"Don't you mean woman?" Keira laughed and grabbed Sarah's hand standing up.

"Oh yeah, I shall not insult her majesty the Queen of drag again," Sarah tried to imitate a british accent poorly. Keira gave her a look... "Okay I won't do that again."

Keira and Sarah melted into each others arms as the music played. It was as if they shared one heart, beating in unison.

The music played as they held each other close, close enough to feel each other breath.

"Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find you and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind"

"I get fixated," Sarah held Keira closer and they swayed slightly to the music, "You know when you know someone and you know if you step forward with that person you will fall crazy in love no doubt."

Keira looked into Sarah's eyes, her deep blue eyes searching for answers to the questions that had been plaguing her for years.

"Like you are on the edge of a cliff, and you know if you jump you will never be the same?" Sarah shook nervously and small tears glossed her eyes, she was afraid to be so close to Keira and even more afraid to lose her.

"With love I never know. I fall in love out of surprise.. I never know nothing.." Keira tried to explain what she thought was her failure at relationships.

"I have only loved a few times, but I have only felt what I just described to you once," Sarah tried to hide it but she could no longer hide it, she was surrendering to Keira.

"With who?" Keira asked already knowing the answer but wanting to hear it from 'her Sarah's' lips.

"With you," Sarah let the words escape her lips, she was no longer in control, her heart was taking over.

"Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find you and I collide."

"I am still standing on the edge...." Sarah was surprised that she actually let that small amount of raw truth come out..

Keira Gray felt her heart palpitate and she lost her breathe, she looked deeply into Sarah's eyes and saw that she was telling the truth. This was the first time she had believed without a doubt that Sarah was waiting for her...

"Now Ya'll are too cute, especially you!!" The DJ interrupted and pointed to a shirtless muscle man in Levi jeans and a cowboy hat.. "Okay here is something a little more up beat but still in this couples theme," The DJ switched the music over to Halo by Beyonce, "Don't worry you singles, I will play you the next song!"

"This song is so cheesy," Sarah laughed, "but I like it."

"I have only heard it a few times.." Keira puts her arms around Sarah's neck letting her forearms rest on her shoulders and lost her hands in Sarah's long curly hair.

"Remember those walls I built, well baby they are tumbling down. And they didn't even put up a fight, they didn't even make a sound."

"I found a way to let you in. But I never really had a doubt. Standing in the light of your halo, I have my angel now."

"One of these days..." Keira whispered in Sarah's ear. "I am going to walk very silent so you don't notice me and going to push you from the fucking edge."

Sarah began to sweat and felt herself falling into Keira's heart. Stumbling over her own feet, she was not expecting such a response from the most gorgeous intelligent woman she had ever been out with.

"I want to jump," Sarah regained her composer and looked off the cliff in her mind, it was a long deep fall... this could hurt but it would be the most exhilarating experience of her life, "If you push me a little I will jump."

"You are everything I need and more, it's written all over your face, baby I can feel your halo..Pray it won't fade away, " Sarah sang along with Beyonce not sure what to say after putting herself out there.

"Be sure to grab me when I push you so we can fall together," Keira laughed at the analogy.

"Stand close enough so I can grab you when you fall," Sarah laughed with Keira.


To be continued!!!